Woof, here we are!
THE FIRST POST!
First of all, if you are here…
Really, I mean it.
Whether you’re just curious about my new antics,
Or it’s a goosebumpin’ feelin’ that told you to hit the link,
I appreciate you taking the time to check out my page.
I guess I should explain what I think I am even doing here?!
Guys! I don’t even know!!
(But I do my best to explain on my About Me page, check it out!)
I have never ran an actual blog before,
I kind of have no idea what I’m doing.
Do these links even work? hahah
I have asked myself a hundred times; “Girl, what do you think you even have to offer people?”
I have had to shut up the gremlin in my head, beating me down, telling me that I am not smart enough, I am not strong enough, and I am just not enough.
I have had to remind myself that for every person that might look down on or judge what I am doing here, there might be one person that needs what I am doing here.
I am jumping in before “I’m ready”
Leaning into fear.
Taking a leap of faith.
Trusting my intuition and practicing what I preach.
I am following and taking action on this strong pull in my heart, my gut, a soul-aching desire…
The need to share.
If you know me personally or have been following me for any lengthy period of time on any of my social media platforms, then you know that I am already a sharer.
I have been on social media since the days of xanga and LiveJournal!
OMG, who remembers that!?
I have been sharing on social media since I was 13, if I remember correctly.
Food, fitness, family, love, and life…
Always doing my best to be a positive person on your feed,
Not to be the person airing their dirty laundry,
Mindlessly spreading negativity all over innocent bystanders.
I can honestly say, I do believe I did that pretty well and looking back, I do not regret sharing my life
(most of it anyways… probably could have left some of those angsty teen music quotes and early 20’s bar crawling-nights off social media. But hey, we live. We learn.).
My only wish is that I shared more transparently.
I’ve been a sharer motivational quotes, beautifully plated healthy meals, pictures of my handsome husband, my “perfect” pregnancy, and all the sweetest moments of motherhood.
And though all those things are real and true, it is not the whole picture!
You’ve seen the quote all over Pinterest!
“’The reason why we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind the scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.’
Lesson to learn: You may think everyone is better than you are, but you are only seeing the image they portray to others.”
What you didn’t see in all those posts, were the days when depression was getting the worst of me and posting those motivational quotes were the ONLY thing holding me accountable to working out, cleaning house…. Getting out of bed.
You didn’t see the scatterbrained, disaster of a mess I made in the kitchen for that beautifully plated dish or the overwhelm that hindered me to efficiently clean up afterwards…
Which probably, and understandably, lead to some aggravation and arguments with that handsome husband of mine because our brains work completely different and he doesn’t understand how I can create and work in such chaos. He still doesn’t and honestly, I don’t get it either… half the time, I don’t even know how the disasters happen. I am a Sam Storm!
You saw the perfect smiles, the date nights, and the highlights of our love story..
You saw the highs, but never how we climbed our way back up from the lows.
You saw the good, but never how we worked our way through the bad and the ugly.
You did not see the uncomfortable work that we have had to do and continue to do, day after day, on ourselves to be who we are as individuals and together.
On a very very real note,
You didn’t see how even though it was truly beautiful and I have never appreciated my body, its abilities, and the miracle that is child bearing, more- there were some days of my pregnancy that can contest for some of the darkest, scariest days of my life.
You didn’t see how even though I love my son with my whole heart and I have never meant it more when I say he is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me- my first year of motherhood had to tear me apart, mentally and emotionally, so I could put myself back together the way I am now… to be who I am now.
Before you go thinking that this is just a rant page and I’ve gone full-blown woe is me, Debbie Downer on you, hear me out…
Motherhood has changed me.
I see life differently.
I see women differently.
I see my mother differently… and her mother.
I see myself for who I have been, who I am, and who I want to be.
I have become an eager student of life with a strong desire to reach out to women of all walks of life.
I have gained an immense appreciation for all that is womanhood, the incredible strength inside every single one of us, and the divine unique power we all carry.
I am a woman who has claimed her purpose and is filled with passion.
And I am working everyday, on becoming a woman unafraid to be who I am, pushing myself to take one courageous step after another, in hopes that it inspires other woman to be exactly who they are.
If you’re still reading, than I will say this:
This blog is for me,
But it is also for you soul sista!
This blog is for us.
To grow, learn, and inspire through sharing and connecting..
Again, Thank you for checking out my page and an even bigger thank you for reading to the end of my very first blog post!
Stay tuned…we are just gettin’ started. -xoxo